teaching mission: accomplished!

bulan lalu saya sempet magang sebagai guru bahasa inggris gitu di sebuah SMP di Surabaya. jujur saya seneng banget karena karena kahirnya cita2 saya sudah setengah kesampaian untuk ngajar di kelas kaya guru favorit saya dulu :')

selama saya magang, saya ngga ngajar di sebuah sekolah favorit yang bonafid yang murid-muridnya kebanyakan anak-anak orang kaya. bukan. saya ngajar di sebuah sekolah baru, sekolah negeri, dengan mayoritas murid-murid dari kalangan menengah ke bawah.
awal saya datang ke sekolah itu, saya hopeless dan gatau gimana mau ngajar nya, karena seperti kebanyakan anak-anak dari kalangan menengah ke bawah, mereka bandelnya minta ampun. walaupun begitu, tetep ada beberapa dari mereka yang tetep rajin di kelas, dan mampu mengikuti pelajaran yang diberikan.

new layout!!

hey everyone, i was just updated my layout hihi :p
as you can see, sekarang jd lebih light dan simple dari kemarin yaaa, warna nya juga unyu kaann, ada renda nya juga hihi :)
ga cuma layout, header sama favicon nya juga baru.. so, everything looks fresher this time. hope you like it and enjoy reading my space! :)

xoxo
otha :)

something i suddenly remember

today, a year ago..
where everything ended between us..
but we're still fine after all, we talk, we chat, we laugh.. we make friend..
i know this may sound stupid for a separated couple, but everything is surely wouldn't be the same between us like before, just like what you said last night.
i become overreacted, too much talking, too many attention and wanting things too much from you.
but you're still befriend me :)

i thank you and i appreciate you to keep this.
though it wasnt like what i want but.. yes, i can change you. the thing i should probably do is i change myself.. no, no, no.. not change myself.. i'll still be myself. but i should probably try to fit in our 'new place'.

thank you for everything. im here whenever you need me. im looking forward for every steps you take. and good luck, capt :)

that's all, 2011.. that's all

wow, baru nyadar kalo udah lama ga update blog.. hehe udh ada sebulanan ya..
alhamdulillah hari ini lagi mood nulis, pas di malem tahun baru 2012 :)

well, udah beberapa hari ini saya semacam merenungi tahun 2011 saya.. and i think this is the hardest year of my life.
i've been fighting for hard times so many times, feeling abondoned, loved, ignored, sooo many things i just cant explain..
di twitter, di tivi, di koran, obrolan temen2.. semuanya lagi sering2nya mereview tahun 2011.
entah kenapa saya sama sekali ngga pengen, bahakan cenderung menghindari mereview tahun 2011 saya, which is considered as my biggest fail, embarassing year, and a super duper tough year for me.. a year i've never been expected before.
tapi setelah dipikir2, karena ngga tau mau berbagi sama siapa lagi, akhirnya saya memutuskan untuk nulis aja, entah review atau bukan ini namanya, but i need a kind of self-talk and self-discussion about this new-year-thing.